I’m a little lost.
Maybe it’s because I’ve been trying to write in the middle of the night after two long days over the weekend, but I’ve been feeling mad uninspired! 😬 And the only reason I’ve been writing these past two days is to force out words, so that I can at least keep my daily writing streak.
But I’ve come to the conclusion that this simply will not do.
I just wrote 105 words for my re-write of Something Better, and it feels like crap. The whole scene feels aimless and (despite some potentially useful elements within) I feel like it’s a scene I will definitely have to re-write again in my next round of editing. I’m writing it just to fill up the word count. 😫
That’s why I think I need to come up with a new and better way to work on this story. Maybe I need to fixate less on word count goals and go with something else. The problem is, putting in the word count at the end of a writing session does give me a huge sense of satisfaction. I still like using the NaNoWriMo website and seeing all the graphs and statistics. But maybe my daily writing goal needs to change.
I got a little burnt out last week and took an afternoon off from writing to focus on
- working on the revamp of this website,
- reading,
- exercise,
- and games to destress…
and that helped improved my mood and motivation, and even inspired me to write way more the next day when I returned to writing. That made me think. Maybe not writing every day might be the key?
NaNoWriMo got me used to writing every day, though, and it’s a habit I want to keep up. But maybe I don’t have to spend every day adding to the word count. Maybe I could work on other aspects of the story that do not require actual writing.
I’ve never been a planner (not for writing, not really in life either, ha), but I’m 60k words into this re-write and starting to feel like I am getting off track. I was watching a movie last night with my partner, and he (a former lit major as well) said something that I’ve been thinking about. He was commenting on a scene of the movie that was connected to a line previously said by a different character when he said,
This is what good writing is about — when no words are wasted and even a seemingly throwaway line leads to what comes later. There shouldn’t be scenes that don’t add to the overall plot.
And that got me thinking. I mean, I’m less strict than he is about what scenes that don’t add to the overall plot, but I guess he’s right. And I’ve also been feeling that more than a few scenes I’ve written so far could be compressed or simply cut out, and the story wouldn’t suffer for it. I did have fun writing those scenes, though, so it wasn’t completely wasted — I don’t think any scenes are wasted, even if they are eventually deleted, because you get to know more about your own characters through writing the scenes anyway.
But, still. I feel like I need to streamline the whole story. I can do it when I get around to editing and revising, but I’d also like to be more concise and focused while writing now. I don’t want to end up with a second draft that’s going to be even more confusing to edit.
Which means… I should probably do a quick outline or structure to figure out some things. Since I’m deviating quite a bit from my original first draft of the story, there are things that used to be there that don’t make sense anymore. And I’ve been throwing in a lot of new scenes that might or might not be adding to the points I want to make in this story.
The urge to go back and edit (and re-write again) is so strong, but I know if I do that, I won’t finish this draft. And I want to finish it first. So I will take some take this coming week to figure some things out, before I get back to writing.
And, who knows, maybe I won’t write every day anymore. Perhaps a couple of days a week would do? I need to give myself some downtime too — I keep forgetting that and get anxious when I don’t write. But as they say, sometimes taking a break can lead to breakthroughs. 🧐
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